Mötley Crüe bassist Nikki Sixx has spent years collecting photography and jotting notes that captured the anger, love, optimism, darkness, and determination that shaped his work. He compiled it all into a masterwork called THIS IS GONNA HURT: THE DOCUMENTARIES, which chronicles his experiences — from his early years filled with toxic waste, to his life with Mötley Crüe, to his death from an OD, and his eventual rebirth through music, photography, and love.
Today, THIS IS GONNA HURT: THE DOCUMENTARIES from Nikki Sixx and Sixx:A.M. debuts on Hulu and the Hulu Plus subscription service. To introduce us to the eye-popping series, Nikki Sixx shared his thoughts about the inner workings of the project with Hulu for an exclusive guest blog entry. — Editors
This is Gonna Hurt
by Nikki Sixx
What began as one man exploring his inner demons through written word and photography soon became — with the help of my partners in Sixx:A.M., James Michael and DJ Ashba — a musical journey all its own. It felt like a line was forming behind the idea of self-awareness through complete honesty. The subjects of the text and the focus of photography started to seep into our hearts, into the lyrics, and onto the pages of my book, “This Is Gonna Hurt.”
I have always thought the misfortunate are the fortunate, and the misfits are a better fit. But it wasn’t until I flushed it out through months and months of self-reflection in my book, and then jammed into the wee hours with James and DJ, that the questions clawing in my head got hammered into the answers.
THIS IS GONNA HURT: THE DOCUMENTARIES is about to reveal those answers.
I’ve always felt like I lived a bit outside the norm and wanted to talk to others about their life experiences. These conversations and the making of the photographs, book, and CD soundtrack have become THIS IS GONNA HURT: THE DOCUMENTARIES, a six-part story that will debut on Hulu today with new episodes coming in consecutive weeks.
Drugs and alcohol had played a large part in my life (as has been well-chronicled in “The Heroin Diaries”) but what about recovery? I am speaking of the kind of recovery one only finds after finding himself. And so it began: A man with a camera merging into a book with his two best friends and partners in music, Sixx:A.M. We knew this wasn’t gonna be easy and we welcomed the challenge with open arms. The funny thing about having nothing to lose is you usually win. I think everybody wins when it comes to honesty.
I think a lot of nails popped out of the coffin lid as it hit home that I had also been chasing down my sister’s ghost and not knowing my part — if I even had one. And I had to come to terms with the reality that she had lived and eventually died in an institution in the very state I had lived — and eventually died, myself.
I’ve been able to grow those experiences through my syndicated radio show and through my active engagement on Twitter and Facebook. Sometimes I learn, sometimes I comment, sometimes I challenge others. At other times, they challenge me. But we always walk away with more than we started with.
I am so happy that Hulu — a forward thinking, wide-reaching content distributor — can bring these documentaries into the computers, phones, and televisions of a large audience that has come to expect something special. Let me know what you think.